Just What Is a Frozen Shoulder Anyway??
January 30, 2008
Ah, tis true. Physical therapy owns me right now. My Best friend really wanted me to come and visit, I had to beg off due to this condition as I’m worthless right now with it *shrugs* She answers this rejection by sending me a shirt saying that I’m owned by Physical Therapy now….
It’s been awhile since I’ve blogged online on a personal blog; I have a few that date back several years. Sometimes I love to write about crime law and current affairs but it’s nice to have a blog just to write about every day life & the good bad and the ugly.
I see this as a diary of sorts, only a test for creative writing and as an outlet. Its easier to type than wield my poison pen. It’s been really difficult to keep an online ID, it seems that there are a lot of freaks in the world that cant stand to read what some individuals write. Like Madalyn and her atheist views, she was silenced. I find it funny that sometimes ppl get so riled up on Ttv message boards that they actually all band together to get a person shut down; they like to band together to lock down actual threads in message boards forums. To shut writers up. What’s wrong with ppl anyway? Are they really that bored, is their life really that dead and lonely that this is all they can come up with? I’ve got 2 thousand photos and negatives to go thru, new music to learn, 4 thousand albums to get on CD, knitting, and now add Physical Therapy and add drop dead gorgeous owners to the mix and YIKES, I’m not bored lol.
But, OTOH I am getting really tired out and quite angry at the pain from this frozen shoulder. I’m playing the Pain Game, I’m exercising, I’m showing up and I’m letting them stretch my arm and I’m doing what I’m suppose to be doing. Yet the shoulder continues to ache and the bone spur is still in there and I am actually afraid that this wont be the end of this problem, and there will be surgery. For whatever reason, bad genes bad luck or just plain old life it seems I’ve gone under the knife about 20 times in my short life. I find that to be absurd and it makes me angry because it’s just not normal. I’m lucky to still be here, for sure but I am REALLY BORED being off my feet so much and not feeling like doing the things I usually do.
So I’m struggling. I’m struggling still with being diagnosed with RA/OA and losing my career, stepping aside for my health. It’s a double edge sword, like being inside the PT business is. There is equipment everywhere. It calls my name, ex gymnast ex body builder ex personal trainer, Hello Jack LaLanne hows CA by the way? And Rudy, you sold Holiday but every time I see a Bally ad, I think dude you did the right thing. I try to stretch and do little tiny exercises that I’ve done all my life. Being ill; or getting sick is really hard. It impacts your life in ways you would never think of; from blow drying your hair to losing your grip to waking up crying in the night from pain. Chronic Pain is very hard to live with. It is starting to really bother me; it started with RA/OA then a pedestrian hit and run; and now the frozen shoulder as a result of this whole mess.
Well what say you; I grit my teeth and laugh and play this pain game, and think of things I probably should not be thinking about but hey at least I get through the treatment and I get through the day. Being easy on the eyes really helps. So for those who are easy on the eyes, thanks. Hope you like the review.
Kat
